heaven and hell are circles

Today I made the move from a Bronx air bnb to my good friend Judy’s apartment where I will be crashing short term til I find a room or cheap apartment.  This place, even though I have only been here twice, is special to me.  I have had remarkable milestones staying in this apartment..  One time I found love, another time I found music again after a long self imposed drought. 

Life is filled with patterns, some happen to us and some we drum out ourselves. Part of intelligence is recognizing the good ones and maintaining them and interrupting the bad ones. Today I’m reminded that heaven and hell are circles. In Dante’s inferno (which I actually read please give me my diploma now), hell is a series of circles that move downward. A series of circles with a direction is a spiral. Spirals are not ambivalent forces, they go up or they go down.

I am at the age where I have seen good things go forever, and I’ve been lucky enough to see some good things come back. There is a repetition to bad habits. A predictable cycle. But good can also move in a circle.

I feel fortunate to be at the third lap around this circle and to stop here for a second and admire this monument of a space. I hope this is an upward spiral but who can say. And I hope whatever good you have seen in the past is a couple turns around from you in your life.